Life....

Been feeling all weird lately ... some anxiety here and there ...some weird family issues going on so I've been absent from this space .... lots of thinking going on. Hoping things will resolve themselves soon...i hope.

After having #2 I sank into a depression, according to my Dr I was having PPD ... which sucked ! I was having anxiety attacks and panic attacks and could hardly even go to the grocery store without feeling like I was going to go nuts.... I think some of what Im feeling now is just the expectation that it will happen again...Which the husband assures me will not happen! I refuse to go on ANY medication as the withdrawl from what they gave me last year was HORRIBLE !!!! It was almost worse than the PPD ! Seriously ...and I was on the lowest dose possible ...and only taking half ! I'm not going to go all Tom Cruise on anyone for taking meds for depression and what not I just figure they're not for me, but I do know some people def need them!

So with the help of a therapist and friends and family I got thru it ...or rather WE got thru it...as a family ...as a whole and the husband was right there with me ... holding me and taking care of the littles whenever I needed him to. (I won the lottery with this guy!) So this time to avoid any nonsense I started working out.....the worst thing that can happen is me getting in some kinda shape right? ..... this blog and I will regiment myself a little more so my mind wont get ahead of me with nutty stuff... lol

Anyways....

Summer break is almost over :( And I say break because we live in the dessert and it'll be hot as H for a while still..... I still need to do clothes shopping for the littles for school/fall as all the damn stores put things out waaaaay early now ! (Am I the only one bothered by this?) Dont get me wrong ....I LOVE shopping and shop ahead mostly but still even for me it's a tad ridiculous!

Im STILL plugging away @ The Shred ... here and there ......Im on day 19....lol I was on hiatus for a little since I had the weird knee thing going on that I could hardly put any weight on it. But Im back on ...and find that working out helps my anxiety TONS!

As previpusly mentioned ..

some weird family issues have been going on ...

So what better to perk us up than ..................

This is #1 ... on cupcake #3 ...thinking about cupcake #4 .....

#2 .... this kid SERIOUSLY enjoyed himself ... mostly just sticks his fingers in the frosting ... licks em ... over and over again... :D Watching them makes me HAPPY !

OOhhhhhh and I forgot ! I made the cupcakes using Danas recipe switch on how to make cake mix LOW FAT!!!!! Find it here---> www.dana-made-it.blogspot.com

I couldnt find a way to make the frosting low fat so I made it regular ... but still, knowing I saved a calorie or two made me smile :D

AND ...I finally got around to makind a Sienna dress and am hooked! I have one in the works for a sweet friend in NY .... will post pics next time!

This dress was made using lil blue boo's halter dress pattern ...for a dress swap ... went to WI !! I am soo happy I finally got the courage to make some stuff with knits ! Now I must make more... The little Miss needs some cute-uniqueness for fall....

Something else on my mind.... I was @ GAP yeaterday and OMG they have the CUTEST little tweed jacket for fall, smocked fancy tops and corduroy bottoms...... they're inspiring me to make some of my own .... hmmmm .....